Daddy said that she said
I will always hate you
She said that he said
we will never make it through
and everything is destitute
everything is falling out
everything is never enough
and when things are goin’ rough
we
Give up and give out
and end what we just began
and it’s never enough...
it’s never enough
to just be loved.
She said that he said
drama is so pitiful
But he said that she said
drama is so beautiful
And all we do is follow suit
all we do is go around
being tough
ignoring love and when things are goin’ rough
we
Give up and give out
and end what we just began
and it’s never enough...
it’s never enough
to just be loved.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
It's Never Enough
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Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Allie's Dream: Escape from California Prison Camp
I sat with my back against the slimy, wet, green stone wall and watched the other prisoners talk in quiet tones. A few people slept here and there but it was hard to get comfortable with 24 beings in a tiny over-grown prison cell. It was cold; I rubbed my arms to circulate blood. A table sat in the middle of the cell and a few men were gathered around it, deep in serious conversation. I stood, stretched my sore legs, and tried to remove some of the mud off my worn cargo pants. Just days earlier they had been brand new from Target, but now, a few hundred miles of muddy roads later, they looked about as old and worn as a pair of pants could look. I moved toward the group of men.
“There’s the women and children to think about though! We can’t just leave them.” “We could come back for them.” “And risk them being beaten alive or worse?”
They noticed me and their conversation halted abruptly. “Alexandra.” One of them nodded at me. I nodded back and stepped confidently over.
“I can get you a cell phone.” I had been waiting for this opportunity to arise. Nobody had yet talked about escape, and here was my chance to help. They looked incredulously at me.
“How do we know you can do it?” “Yeah, you might get us killed.”
I looked at them with a serious face. “Trust me. I want to get out of here as much as the next person, and without a cell phone, you won’t get anywhere.”
There was a moment of silence and hesitation on their part, and finally one of the men stuck out his hand with a resolute face. “Name’s Mike. I heard Ben call you Alexandra?”
I nodded. Mike was tall and looked like a giant next to Ben. Somehow I knew Ben from somewhere, at some point we’d met earlier in life. We knew each other, in any case, and that left one other man unknown to me. He stepped forward, his longish blonde hair swaying. He nodded curtly and held out his hand. I shook it. “Collin.”
And so, it began. Collin, Mike, Ben and I stood in a group, discussing the Second Great Escape from persecuting, back-stabbing Marine soldiers.
I remember feeling very fulfilled, like my life was helping. Like the pieces that had so long been floating about my life were finally falling into place.
A large hole was dug, in between warnings of “They’re coming, sit on the hole” or “Here comes lunch, quick; hide it.” Eventually, throughout a stretch of about 4 days, the hole grew big enough for the largest of our company to squeeze through. It curved up and around, leading out of the stale prison cell air into the overgrown prison camp. We didn’t know why we’d been forced to travel from Texas all the way to California by foot. We didn’t know why we were forced to lay low in an unused prison camp for a few weeks. We didn’t know why Marines were taking hundreds of people captive and forcing manual labor. But we did know we wanted out. We wanted to warn others; to bust this operation.
I was the first one out. It was dark outside, and I had to overcome my fear of pitch black nights to crawl out of that hole. I flattened myself against the wall immediately and stood perfectly still for over five minutes. It was raining, to make things worse, and when I finally moved, my legs were covered in mud spattered up from the ground. I leaned over and remembered lessons on clearing a space from behind something. There was not much activity at all. I took note of one guard standing off by himself in a dark corner, and then something else caught my eye. Resting on a stretcher in the rain, clothed in red blankets, was an elderly African American woman, her eyes closed in sleep and her hands gripping something. I could not tell what it was. A man stood leaning against a tree a few feet away, whip in hand, his head nodding to his chest in exhaustion. My mouth dropped open.
So this was Mable.
This was the abused Mable, the Mable who received lashes from a whip every time someone did something wrong. The Mable who never cried out, who never remained ever close to her God. The Mable everyone loved and trusted.
I knew we couldn’t leave her. But I didn’t know how we would rescue her; I just knew she wouldn’t survive much longer if left here to bleed, sleeping in cold rain and eating broth once a day.
I signaled through the tiny cell window that it was clear if they were careful. One, two, and then three women came out, then a man. I pointed toward a path I’d already scoped out and ran down mentally. I nodded, smiled encouragingly at the women, and they flew down it like ghosts. They were completely silent. As they reached the broken down, mossy fence line, they disappeared through a man-sized hole. I looked up at the black sky and thanked God.
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Thursday, August 28, 2008
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Photos From MSBC 2008
Christy, Eileen, Holly, Celestia, Rene'e, me, Lydia's hair haha, Chelsea, I dunno who that is, Josie, and Kara. Christy and Kara are counselors. Oh, and the sneaks at the top? I don't know the guy on the left but the one on the right is Scott. Haha. We didn't know they were there.
We turned in all our cell phones and stuff. We claimed we were the most honest cabin at camp! :D
Miss Randi Renae wearing my hat. ;)
And that's Lexie, Jeff, and Andrew. :)
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Monday, August 11, 2008
Life, Love, and the Pursuit Thereof
Well, I guess it's been too long since I blogged last. I can't remember how.
lol
On Thursday, Tony had his last devo with us before he went back to Arkansas. On Friday, I went to Randi's house to celebrate Tony's birthday. It was funny, only Jeff showed up while I was there, and I was there from 7 to 9:30pm. Dave and Annie showed up to pick me up, and Jeff, Randi, me, and Tony were all sitting on the porch laughing and talking and gathering around the fire. They kinda laughed. Just as I was leaving, a few other people arrived and apparently after I left the bonfire was started.
Fireweed=Purple.
I call Fireweed Purple, not Fireweed.
Tony got a kick out of that. "Did you just call that Purple?" Yes indeed i DID!
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Tuesday, June 24, 2008
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Thursday, June 19, 2008
Notes on Modesty
Annie and I are putting together a class on modesty that will last four weeks. I'm going to stick the outline on here.
POINTS TO MAKE (in no particular order)
- Definition of modest/modesty/discretion:
To be discreet: prudent; wise in avoiding error and in selecting the best means to accomplish a goal; circumspect; courteous; polite; honest dealings. - A time and a place for certain clothing.
- What is our goal when we dress immodestly?
- Being discreet starts with clothes and does not stop with behaviour.
- You can dress attractively w/o being immodest.
- Let's not walk the line of modesty/immodesty, let's run from it.
- Guys aren't saying we have to cover up every bit of skin. (I.o.w., no burkhas!) They just want our honest and simple help.
A FEW STATISTICS (www.therebelution.com/modestysurvey/)
- Out of 1,211 guys of all ages, 1,179 voted in a recent survey on modesty that a girl can be attractive and modest at the same time. That's 78%!
- 387 out of 428 voted that modest girls make a big difference and are noticed.
- 934 out of 1236 voted that they have more respect for a modest girl. Only 144 were neutral.
QUESTIONS FOR DISCUSSION
- Why do we dress immodestly? Is it insecurity? Peer pressure?
- What is one thing we can change? (Notebook paper is needed for this.)
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